Verbal Diarrhoea on A Sunday Night

It's amazing how a couple of pints and a couple of glasses of wine loosen up the old thinking chords, and allow you to come up with a bunch of stuff for a blog!

You'll have to forgive me if I go on a bit tonight. I reckon I have at least four topics to tackle, and they may multiply as I get going!

Anyway, let's get going. First off I'm scared! Not in a bad sense, but in quite a real and exciting sense. I;ve got a song by a band called Lit which has the lyric "I love the things that we should fear, but I'm not afraid of being here".That sums up how I feel right now. Was thinking about it last week, that I've never had anything like this before, where I'm going somewhere, and I'm not coming back after a week to carry on at work. I have no work, I have nothing out there, it's just going to be up to me to sort everything out. I think this is exactly why this is going to be good for me. I've never actually had to sort this sort of stuff out myself. I've had to sort out minor stuff out before, but never really something which affects the whole fabric of my life!Even if it doesn't work out for me over there, at least I know that I have it in me to make things change, and do things for myself. I think in some ways, mostly work related, I've been too safe for too long, and it's time I scared myself!

Of course thinking about this made me think about the other thing that was really scaring me!The most important thing to me has always, and will always, be my friends. This is going to be the first time for a long time, if not ever, where I know that I'm not realistically going to be able to pop over and see them. Even when I was in Aberdeen I knew I could just jump on a train or a plane, and come and see everyone. I think very much that the friendship bonds I have will remain the most important thing in my life, and that I never want to give them up for anything. I know I'm off and for a short period of time, in a way, I'm starting a new life, and I'll make new friends along the way (At least I hope I am otherwise I'm gonna have a really crap time!), but my friends over here will always be the most special people to me.

I had a wonderful day today. Just got me a new camera as I mentioned previously, and as I said I was thinking there wasn't anything to do with it till I left. However, I got the urge today to just drive round quite a large portion of this corner of the country known as Norfolk, and take pictures. It's such a good feeling on a Sunday afternoon to just not have anything else to do apart from look for pictures. I'd recommend it if anyone is feeling slightly jaded towards Norfolk. It makes you look around and realise that even if there's not anything that stands out, you can find beauty and interest in everything!

I apologise for my general outpourings here. Well, it's been a while since I posted anything!Firstly I've had some alcohol, and secondly I'm slightly on a high at the moment anyway! It's a silly reason to be on a high, but it's cheered me up!After being on a dating website for a long time with no reponse, no one has ever clicked on me. I thought I'd put a photo up on the site of me though, and it actually got a response.People may not realise it, but that's quite a big thing for me. So many times over the years, people have got to know me through emails or chatting or whatever without having seen me. I generally think (without wanting to sound too big-headed) that I'm a pretty good chap to chat to, and I'm quite funny and generally can hold my own on that side of things, but then they see me and they're a bit disappointed or whatever. However, this time it's ace, cos she actually saw a photo of me and was interested! Get in there. Back of the net. Cash back! Cos, I've just got to figure out what to say to her now!!!!